My pillar of strength.

10:54 PM

Just came back home and finally settled down from a 3D2N trip to KL!! :D Phew, it was a tiring and a good experience to walk around everywhere without transport. KL is like a shopper's paradise.. Too many shops to walk within that area itself.. Gosh, i didnt even manage to complete walking all the malls!

The worst part of the trip is to have to go through a night of super heavy rain and having to bargain for taxi fares to get back to the hotel. Just a few turns costs RM12.00!! those taxi drivers really know how to take advantage of the situation man.. What's more.. Stepped on a "flooded tide" outside the restaurant.. Its actually drain water.. Yucks.. And worse, it made our legs covered with oil!! OMG that is like a nightmare. -____-"

But at least managed to get a good travelling experience - bargaining for stuff.. hunting for stuff.. eating different stuff.. looking at different people.. (didnt know got so many indians in KL) etcetc..

On the way back which is like 7 hours long >_< watched "What Women Wants" and "The Diary of Wimpy Kids 2".. Haha at least the coach that i took back to SG was better than the coach we took to KL.. The one to KL didn't have anything and we were dying of boredom ._.

Tmr start school again... SIAN! Although i must admit i haven't really study yet..... LOL. Okay im officially dead for prelims.. but watever.. dun really have the mood to study..

Looking forward to Cameron Highlands trip next month~ Tmr Valentine's Day! :)

8:00 AM

What if I said I still don't believe u. Perhaps, needless to say, u already know how I feel.. Maybe I shouldn't have asked.. I'm sorry.

11:38 PM

If i hadn't asked for that piece of evidence, u would've succeeded in lying to me.. It was out of the blue when u acted so strange. I knew there was something wrong, that u were hiding something from me.. At the end of the day, it turned out i was right. To think that u have asked me to trust u, saying that i'm hypersensitive, all these nonsense - and i thought we've talked about this, that u'll tell me anything at all. Now, i have to say that i'm disappointed. While its just a few days away from the date, i'm as good as gone. So much more questions to ask, but I don't even wanna know what's going on.. I don't know what else you have done. All i can say at this point of time is, i don't wanna know. Don't..

Wrong or right,
Black or white,
if i close my eyes,
its all the same.

how do we fix this??

10:08 PM

Ivan asked me something that made me thought about it: "Why would you pamper a person so much?" All that i can conclude is - its probably one of the ways where u show someone affection. Take parents and their kids in modern days for example. Perhaps, modernity capitalism had alienated us in perceiving that love = value. Or if u look at it in another perspective, it means to spend less of your own finances to trade for someone else's happiness or enjoyment. Is it true? Well, it all depends on how one view this certain method of affection.. Is this part of Human Rights? Haha!

2:03 AM

i never asked...?? i admit im very small gas. i thought u asked me not to ask too much? grr........ just that sentence killed my whole day today

12:38 AM

and just like that it got brushed off.. not even... nvm.. so u were really not interested in what i have to say... so be it... u tell me, how i want to have mood to start talking???

12:15 AM

dont know why but it just seem so short-cut when i'm the one talking.. :(

busy busy week.. so many things to do, so many travelling, so little time left!!
haizzz fffffffffffffffffffffffff

1:18 AM

i want to pee

12:59 AM

i could never
find another person
that can love me
the way you do

one in a million
that i could find
someone like u
in this world

:)

ITS A LIFETIME INVESTMENT. MWAHAHAHA. XD
And its 11 today! :D

ℒℴvℯ yℴu ♥

12:21 AM

today was a long day.. lots of things happen on sat (SH birthday party @ costa rica pasir ris) and today (yesterday)! so tired.. it wasn't too bad lah, well at least i tried to be socialable. lol. ahhh. lazy to write actually.. lol.

as they add up they grow each day... :(
i guess i'll just stop complaining so u won't be too stressed too..
the less we talk about problems, the further we grow apart.
but no matter how much we talk about it, it just stays the same does it..?

12:29 PM

Dinner @ Zhou's Kitchen last night at Far East Square..? Ala carte buffet for $35 per pax including ++. The food wasn't too bad actually. Except for some that didn't quite meet the standard. Haha.
I was so soft spoken. I don't like it , yet i can't do much about it :(
Scared of saying the wrong thing. And couldn't think of the right words to say? Well, I do hope i didn't leave a bad first impression.. They are nice people.
I don't like this side of myself. Haiz.

It really was a reminder..

11:13 PM

at least i expected u to bring it up. to me, it shows ur level of interest, of how much u care. but u didn't. u shud have known that i was looking forward to it. thats why i didnt wanna say anything. when im patiently waiting from the start. u should have seen it coming.
i really shouldn't expect anything or to care about anything. do whatever u want and if u dont wanna tell me its fine. i dont wanna know anymore. then, i don't know where this will be going anyway.
for the number of times u disappoint me, u can even say it out to me that i have disappointed u. i hate to hear that word "disappointed", moreover even to use it in front of the person i care. i tried to shrug it off and forget about it, but it still breaks my heart.

u always say its all the small things that affects it. and how many times have i told u that its the small things that adds it up. there's macro and there's micro. u think in economics, macro works fine alone? without micro, it wouldn't have worked out well either.

don't know where this is going but it isnt going good. maybe i dont deserve u. maybe i'm too much. maybe i havent really trusted u completely. maybe u dont care enough. good night.

11:29 PM

life is but a fucked up fact.
i feel like giving up studying. my life is already at stake anyway..
i really don't have any motivation to study anymore.
i should have been born in a lesser well to do family. i dont deserve such a good life..

11:47 PM

New year's eve 2012 was good, bad and crazy! Haha its kind of like a memorable night to me. Went Liang Court for dinner on shabu shabu for a deal which i bought like 3 months+ ago? Haha it was good, nice. But abit exp. Bought at 12.50 per person instead of 17.50~
then walked down all the way to clarke quay to boat quay to parliament house to esplanade and finally to MBS. hahaha and the journey was happy to torturous and moody one. oh well. that lasted for until we reached MBS at least. lolol. oh not to forget about the tiger thingy which can light up that we got from clarke quay. haha walking around with it attracts alot of attention!!
anw when we reach mbs we walked around abit and finally at 10pm managed to get into the barricaded seat areas and camp there for 2 hours. phew it was really alot of ppl @_@
but the bad thing is that dun even have countdown at all!!! then whats the point sia omg~ ok lah just to see the fireworks lor. haha. in fact we dont even know when and the fireworks just suddenly shot up at around 5min +- midnight. they should have MBS shine the light to some building so we can all countdown tgther. courtesy of friend's idea. lol.

ok lah at least the fireworks are nice and the company is nice too!!! but the way back was HELL! -.- we literally have to walk 1 bus stop before the MBS stop and squeezed through ppl in the roads and tunnels to get across to marina bay mrt side, just to find out that the traffic police have unblocked the barricade and allow ppl to cross the road so they didnt have to go through what we did - walking through underground to get to the other side of the road. haa.

and when we got on the bus, we have no seats and we were practically stuck in it until 1.5 hours later after esplanade then its smooth sailing. seriously, traffic police??? sux ttm!!! -.- lucky i didnt have to hold my pee like that indonesian girl sitting down in front of me, otherwise i'll be super duper grumpy. bwahahaa.

at the end of the day, reached home happy and that's what it is :3

that was quite a memorable new year countdown since its been awhile since i've went down to town to count and squeeze with hundreds of ppl! hehe! and oh yeah!!! i saw shooting stars when i lay down to look at the sky!! there were lots of them, and yes i made a wish :) :) :)

P.S. Forget to bring camera T_T so use phone camera take.. so not nice :(
and im just nearly recovering from my 2 weeks old friend Flu!!! X(

11:27 PM

where am i going? what am i doing? 心里好烦的感觉，仿佛被淹在海里，即使像大声喊叫也办不到.. 一开口就会把自己淹死.. 我能坚持到底吗？？付出的是否这样就足够了？

11:43 PM

Ate Holiday Inn Buffet today! 2 person cost $128... Not cheap wor!!! Hehehe! ^^
Lol no lah, use deal coupon de la. So its much cheaper :)
Overall its not too bad, got chilli crab, sashimi (so-so), turkey! Others are so so ba. Their dessert also quite limited. Hehe. Went for 2 servings and its enough to make me full already.. Sigh :( Must be becuz of flu! Its been 4 days.. Hope it recovers by at least Thursday~ Need to go xmas shopping liao. Haha abit late as well. A few things i need to buy~ Aaaa dun feel like goin aniwhere when im sick.. ~.~"

11:58 PM

i shall make a post coz someone say i nv post for so long liao.. also dunno got keep track or not one then i post for what hahahahaha. watched you're the apply of my eyes yesterday. like what other ppl have said, its nice!! especially the part where they keep triggering the handgun.... its really unbelievabl(y) funny!! LOL.
the ending was somewhat unexpected too. just wonder how fragile it is to be broken just like that. i wanna get the dvd!!

been craving for soup spoon lately as well.. then again the soup are kinda expensive... they markup the price too high liao la... wth :(

yes yes i know money hard to earn... yes yes, we said to makan kopitiam only from then on... what can i do?? ^^"

am wondering.... just wondering...

真的搞不懂-人生道理有什么意义？？ if u put 100% effort in something that is so important to u, will u be able to eventually get the outcome that u want? but based on the quote "you reap what you sow", that should be it! then again, life is never fair. and risk will always be there to reduce the chances of u getting the exact outcome. its so complicated. the human mind is sooooo complicated. these are just a fraction of the factors of the difficulties we face. why can't we be just as systematic like animals to act on stimulus response rather than having to go through the thinking process and problem solving?? why must evolution be so cruel to put such expectations on human beings and experimenting on our existence...
after trying to reason it out, im back to the start. ...

on a lighter note...

goodnight! and oh i should always be smiling no matter what!

3:55 PM

Its coming to the weekends again! Yay! Haha, but sadly the weekends will pass by like a paper floating in the wind... So fast and silent :( Anyhow, school's starting to kick in as well. Lets say i've did my best as a student to study as much as i could up to now. Hehe. At least i picked up some materials to read! Although.. Just 5%.... XD Lets just say the mood is starting to kick in. Hahaha.

Xmas is coming!! Gotta buy xmas gifts too :) Hmm, maybe we should have an xmas outing cum gift exchanging session.. I mean the clique. Haha. But someone has to organize it.. Maybe start next year? This year probably kind of late alr ba.. :\

Looked around and realised that there are so many dead blogs. Lol.

And we're halfway through :)

12:04 AM

7:44 PM

Woo hoo! Back from Batam trip :) It was enjoyable! Hehe. Morning ferry; 7.30am met Van @ Harbourfront Center and reached there at about 9am? Then... The angency's tour starts for the rest of the day until night at 7pm sg time. Imagine being outside and carrying the stuffs (or leave in the bus actually) and walking around with my backpack (scared lose my stuff ma) for most of the tour. Actually there's not much things to see lol, most are malls and malls and malls.

First stop was the Kueh Lapis shop. Got cheated $2 extra of payment for the original flavor purchase. Then only to "discuss" it with the tour guide at Factory Outlet stopover. Hahaha. Ok lah, although its just $2 more.... Next time should be more attentive! :s

Next stop, seafood lunch. It wasn't that good imo. Just so so. Didn't eat the prawn cus lazy peel :P Somemore the coconut was old and cant even eat the "flesh"... After lunch went to some flying fox thingy which Van and bf took while i just waited for them in the bus. Haha, didn't look that scary, but i didn't wanna take partly cos of the bright sun. $5 for that. The go-kart was another option but we had 30 min wait, so the tour guide decided not to go for it since we only have limited time. There's also paintball shooting which wasn't cheap - rp 100000 for 20 pellets. The go kart was rp150000 for 10min btw. Me thinks its cheat ppl money. Lol.

After the fun, stopped at Batam City Square where we walked around and bought alpukat jus (avocado blend), niceeeeee! Just for rp10000. Haha. I also bought comic from the bookstore there. (rp. 16500) Then we had a rushed KFC dinner but at least its not too bad~

Other stopovers Factory Outlet Center, Local snacks shop, batik shop. The rest of the day was free n easy and we just stayed inside the hotel, dead tired. Lol. Didn't manage to drink the light wine that we brought over or play cards :( Then come back go through SG customs i nearly got taxed for that wine cus not over 48 hours should declare wine products to pay tax... Lol. But good thing the nice customs staff gave us a chance and just let us go. Anyway, immigration are always such a hassle when there's so much ppl queueing up -.- damn sian, can wait 1 hour to just get our passport stamped. Other than that, the trip was great!! :)))

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