Give me one minute.

2012-02-13T22:54:00.004+08:00

Just came back home and finally settled down from a 3D2N trip to KL!! :D Phew, it was a tiring and a good experience to walk around everywhere without transport. KL is like a shopper's paradise.. Too many shops to walk within that area itself.. Gosh, i didnt even manage to complete walking all the malls!

The worst part of the trip is to have to go through a night of super heavy rain and having to bargain for taxi fares to get back to the hotel. Just a few turns costs RM12.00!! those taxi drivers really know how to take advantage of the situation man.. What's more.. Stepped on a "flooded tide" outside the restaurant.. Its actually drain water.. Yucks.. And worse, it made our legs covered with oil!! OMG that is like a nightmare. -____-"

But at least managed to get a good travelling experience - bargaining for stuff.. hunting for stuff.. eating different stuff.. looking at different people.. (didnt know got so many indians in KL) etcetc..

On the way back which is like 7 hours long >_< watched "What Women Wants" and "The Diary of Wimpy Kids 2".. Haha at least the coach that i took back to SG was better than the coach we took to KL.. The one to KL didn't have anything and we were dying of boredom ._.

Tmr start school again... SIAN! Although i must admit i haven't really study yet..... LOL. Okay im officially dead for prelims.. but watever.. dun really have the mood to study..

Looking forward to Cameron Highlands trip next month~ Tmr Valentine's Day! :)

2012-02-02T08:00:00.002+08:00

What if I said I still don't believe u. Perhaps, needless to say, u already know how I feel.. Maybe I shouldn't have asked.. I'm sorry.

2012-01-31T23:38:00.003+08:00

If i hadn't asked for that piece of evidence, u would've succeeded in lying to me.. It was out of the blue when u acted so strange. I knew there was something wrong, that u were hiding something from me.. At the end of the day, it turned out i was right. To think that u have asked me to trust u, saying that i'm hypersensitive, all these nonsense - and i thought we've talked about this, that u'll tell me anything at all. Now, i have to say that i'm disappointed. While its just a few days away from the date, i'm as good as gone. So much more questions to ask, but I don't even wanna know what's going on.. I don't know what else you have done. All i can say at this point of time is, i don't wanna know. Don't..

Wrong or right,
Black or white,
if i close my eyes,
its all the same.

how do we fix this??

2012-01-29T22:08:00.002+08:00

Ivan asked me something that made me thought about it: "Why would you pamper a person so much?" All that i can conclude is - its probably one of the ways where u show someone affection. Take parents and their kids in modern days for example. Perhaps, modernity capitalism had alienated us in perceiving that love = value. Or if u look at it in another perspective, it means to spend less of your own finances to trade for someone else's happiness or enjoyment. Is it true? Well, it all depends on how one view this certain method of affection.. Is this part of Human Rights? Haha!

2012-01-26T02:03:00.002+08:00

i never asked...?? i admit im very small gas. i thought u asked me not to ask too much? grr........ just that sentence killed my whole day today

2012-01-19T00:38:00.003+08:00

and just like that it got brushed off.. not even... nvm.. so u were really not interested in what i have to say... so be it... u tell me, how i want to have mood to start talking???

2012-01-18T00:15:00.002+08:00

dont know why but it just seem so short-cut when i'm the one talking.. :(

busy busy week.. so many things to do, so many travelling, so little time left!!
haizzz fffffffffffffffffffffffff

2012-01-15T01:18:00.000+08:00

i want to pee

2012-01-11T00:59:00.004+08:00

i could never
find another person
that can love me
the way you do

one in a million
that i could find
someone like u
in this world

:)

ITS A LIFETIME INVESTMENT. MWAHAHAHA. XD
And its 11 today! :D

ℒℴvℯ yℴu ♥

2012-01-10T00:21:00.003+08:00

today was a long day.. lots of things happen on sat (SH birthday party @ costa rica pasir ris) and today (yesterday)! so tired.. it wasn't too bad lah, well at least i tried to be socialable. lol. ahhh. lazy to write actually.. lol.

as they add up they grow each day... :(
i guess i'll just stop complaining so u won't be too stressed too..
the less we talk about problems, the further we grow apart.
but no matter how much we talk about it, it just stays the same does it..?

2012-01-07T12:29:00.002+08:00

Dinner @ Zhou's Kitchen last night at Far East Square..? Ala carte buffet for $35 per pax including ++. The food wasn't too bad actually. Except for some that didn't quite meet the standard. Haha.
I was so soft spoken. I don't like it , yet i can't do much about it :(
Scared of saying the wrong thing. And couldn't think of the right words to say? Well, I do hope i didn't leave a bad first impression.. They are nice people.
I don't like this side of myself. Haiz.

It really was a reminder..

2012-01-03T23:13:00.012+08:00

at least i expected u to bring it up. to me, it shows ur level of interest, of how much u care. but u didn't. u shud have known that i was looking forward to it. thats why i didnt wanna say anything. when im patiently waiting from the start. u should have seen it coming.
i really shouldn't expect anything or to care about anything. do whatever u want and if u dont wanna tell me its fine. i dont wanna know anymore. then, i don't know where this will be going anyway.
for the number of times u disappoint me, u can even say it out to me that i have disappointed u. i hate to hear that word "disappointed", moreover even to use it in front of the person i care. i tried to shrug it off and forget about it, but it still breaks my heart.

u always say its all the small things that affects it. and how many times have i told u that its the small things that adds it up. there's macro and there's micro. u think in economics, macro works fine alone? without micro, it wouldn't have worked out well either.

don't know where this is going but it isnt going good. maybe i dont deserve u. maybe i'm too much. maybe i havent really trusted u completely. maybe u dont care enough. good night.

2012-01-02T23:29:00.002+08:00

life is but a fucked up fact.
i feel like giving up studying. my life is already at stake anyway..
i really don't have any motivation to study anymore.
i should have been born in a lesser well to do family. i dont deserve such a good life..

2012-01-01T23:47:00.007+08:00

New year's eve 2012 was good, bad and crazy! Haha its kind of like a memorable night to me. Went Liang Court for dinner on shabu shabu for a deal which i bought like 3 months+ ago? Haha it was good, nice. But abit exp. Bought at 12.50 per person instead of 17.50~
then walked down all the way to clarke quay to boat quay to parliament house to esplanade and finally to MBS. hahaha and the journey was happy to torturous and moody one. oh well. that lasted for until we reached MBS at least. lolol. oh not to forget about the tiger thingy which can light up that we got from clarke quay. haha walking around with it attracts alot of attention!!
anw when we reach mbs we walked around abit and finally at 10pm managed to get into the barricaded seat areas and camp there for 2 hours. phew it was really alot of ppl @_@
but the bad thing is that dun even have countdown at all!!! then whats the point sia omg~ ok lah just to see the fireworks lor. haha. in fact we dont even know when and the fireworks just suddenly shot up at around 5min +- midnight. they should have MBS shine the light to some building so we can all countdown tgther. courtesy of friend's idea. lol.

ok lah at least the fireworks are nice and the company is nice too!!! but the way back was HELL! -.- we literally have to walk 1 bus stop before the MBS stop and squeezed through ppl in the roads and tunnels to get across to marina bay mrt side, just to find out that the traffic police have unblocked the barricade and allow ppl to cross the road so they didnt have to go through what we did - walking through underground to get to the other side of the road. haa.

and when we got on the bus, we have no seats and we were practically stuck in it until 1.5 hours later after esplanade then its smooth sailing. seriously, traffic police??? sux ttm!!! -.- lucky i didnt have to hold my pee like that indonesian girl sitting down in front of me, otherwise i'll be super duper grumpy. bwahahaa.

at the end of the day, reached home happy and that's what it is :3

that was quite a memorable new year countdown since its been awhile since i've went down to town to count and squeeze with hundreds of ppl! hehe! and oh yeah!!! i saw shooting stars when i lay down to look at the sky!! there were lots of them, and yes i made a wish :) :) :)

P.S. Forget to bring camera T_T so use phone camera take.. so not nice :(
and im just nearly recovering from my 2 weeks old friend Flu!!! X(

2011-12-22T23:27:00.005+08:00

where am i going? what am i doing? 心里好烦的感觉，仿佛被淹在海里，即使像大声喊叫也办不到.. 一开口就会把自己淹死.. 我能坚持到底吗？？付出的是否这样就足够了？

2011-12-20T23:43:00.003+08:00

Ate Holiday Inn Buffet today! 2 person cost $128... Not cheap wor!!! Hehehe! ^^
Lol no lah, use deal coupon de la. So its much cheaper :)
Overall its not too bad, got chilli crab, sashimi (so-so), turkey! Others are so so ba. Their dessert also quite limited. Hehe. Went for 2 servings and its enough to make me full already.. Sigh :( Must be becuz of flu! Its been 4 days.. Hope it recovers by at least Thursday~ Need to go xmas shopping liao. Haha abit late as well. A few things i need to buy~ Aaaa dun feel like goin aniwhere when im sick.. ~.~"

2011-12-14T23:58:00.011+08:00

i shall make a post coz someone say i nv post for so long liao.. also dunno got keep track or not one then i post for what hahahahaha. watched you're the apply of my eyes yesterday. like what other ppl have said, its nice!! especially the part where they keep triggering the handgun.... its really unbelievabl(y) funny!! LOL.
the ending was somewhat unexpected too. just wonder how fragile it is to be broken just like that. i wanna get the dvd!!

been craving for soup spoon lately as well.. then again the soup are kinda expensive... they markup the price too high liao la... wth :(

yes yes i know money hard to earn... yes yes, we said to makan kopitiam only from then on... what can i do?? ^^"

am wondering.... just wondering...

真的搞不懂-人生道理有什么意义？？ if u put 100% effort in something that is so important to u, will u be able to eventually get the outcome that u want? but based on the quote "you reap what you sow", that should be it! then again, life is never fair. and risk will always be there to reduce the chances of u getting the exact outcome. its so complicated. the human mind is sooooo complicated. these are just a fraction of the factors of the difficulties we face. why can't we be just as systematic like animals to act on stimulus response rather than having to go through the thinking process and problem solving?? why must evolution be so cruel to put such expectations on human beings and experimenting on our existence...
after trying to reason it out, im back to the start. ...

on a lighter note...

goodnight! and oh i should always be smiling no matter what!

2011-12-09T15:55:00.005+08:00

Its coming to the weekends again! Yay! Haha, but sadly the weekends will pass by like a paper floating in the wind... So fast and silent :( Anyhow, school's starting to kick in as well. Lets say i've did my best as a student to study as much as i could up to now. Hehe. At least i picked up some materials to read! Although.. Just 5%.... XD Lets just say the mood is starting to kick in. Hahaha.

Xmas is coming!! Gotta buy xmas gifts too :) Hmm, maybe we should have an xmas outing cum gift exchanging session.. I mean the clique. Haha. But someone has to organize it.. Maybe start next year? This year probably kind of late alr ba.. :\

Looked around and realised that there are so many dead blogs. Lol.

And we're halfway through :)

2011-12-07T00:04:00.001+08:00

2011-12-04T19:44:00.006+08:00

Woo hoo! Back from Batam trip :) It was enjoyable! Hehe. Morning ferry; 7.30am met Van @ Harbourfront Center and reached there at about 9am? Then... The angency's tour starts for the rest of the day until night at 7pm sg time. Imagine being outside and carrying the stuffs (or leave in the bus actually) and walking around with my backpack (scared lose my stuff ma) for most of the tour. Actually there's not much things to see lol, most are malls and malls and malls.

First stop was the Kueh Lapis shop. Got cheated $2 extra of payment for the original flavor purchase. Then only to "discuss" it with the tour guide at Factory Outlet stopover. Hahaha. Ok lah, although its just $2 more.... Next time should be more attentive! :s

Next stop, seafood lunch. It wasn't that good imo. Just so so. Didn't eat the prawn cus lazy peel :P Somemore the coconut was old and cant even eat the "flesh"... After lunch went to some flying fox thingy which Van and bf took while i just waited for them in the bus. Haha, didn't look that scary, but i didn't wanna take partly cos of the bright sun. $5 for that. The go-kart was another option but we had 30 min wait, so the tour guide decided not to go for it since we only have limited time. There's also paintball shooting which wasn't cheap - rp 100000 for 20 pellets. The go kart was rp150000 for 10min btw. Me thinks its cheat ppl money. Lol.

After the fun, stopped at Batam City Square where we walked around and bought alpukat jus (avocado blend), niceeeeee! Just for rp10000. Haha. I also bought comic from the bookstore there. (rp. 16500) Then we had a rushed KFC dinner but at least its not too bad~

Other stopovers Factory Outlet Center, Local snacks shop, batik shop. The rest of the day was free n easy and we just stayed inside the hotel, dead tired. Lol. Didn't manage to drink the light wine that we brought over or play cards :( Then come back go through SG customs i nearly got taxed for that wine cus not over 48 hours should declare wine products to pay tax... Lol. But good thing the nice customs staff gave us a chance and just let us go. Anyway, immigration are always such a hassle when there's so much ppl queueing up -.- damn sian, can wait 1 hour to just get our passport stamped. Other than that, the trip was great!! :)))

2011-12-02T00:09:00.004+08:00

Viber is cocking up today --" somehow. say cant connect to internet when its already connected. zzz. cant even receive any msg from anyone or send msg to anyone!

cut my hair today.. new hairstyle (if i styled it) lol. but im sure i'll be lazy to style most of the time... and that its a tad long still... :\
twilight was nice, except that there isn't much action in the show. so much things happening this week, so tired too. maybe its the weather. dont even have the mood to concentrate in class for marketing today.. zzzzzz. hayate is nice.. reading that manga now.. haha.

im wondering if im too much. haha. either way, appreciate u to be able to tolerate me.. ilu !!!!

sorry for missing out on so many things. i believe this is just a temporary argument, things will go back to the way it was when u're back..! well, we're humans afterall, we have our limitations.. lets.. chill! lol. friendship isn't measured by time (or whatever it is XD), but the way we are able to still be good friends and be ourselves even when we haven't met up in such a long time..!

can't wait for this weekends!! hopefully everything will turn out nicely~ :D

2011-11-29T00:05:00.005+08:00

its probably because i just want it to be fair and that i dont want to be kept in the dark...

Quotes from Beginners:

Anna: Why do you leave everyone? Why did you let me go?
Oliver: Maybe because I don't really believe that it's going to work and then I make sure that it doesn't work.

Anna: You can ask me anything you want.
Oliver: Anything? What's there? (points outside)
Anna: That's a tree. And Cars. Another building like this one. People in the building like us, half of them think it's never going to work out, the other half believe in magic. It's like a war between them.
Oliver: How do you know so much about people?
Anna: Well, you have to learn how to read their faces.

Hal: Well, let's say that since you were little, you always dreamed of getting a lion. And you wait, and you wait, and you wait, and you wait but the lion doesn't come. And along comes a giraffe. You can be alone, or you can be with the giraffe.
Oliver: I'd wait for the lion.
Hal: That's why I worry about you.

2011-11-24T23:23:00.008+08:00

i pray that u get well soon!! :(
btw will u download dropbox??
oh yeah forgot to show u some pictures as well..
ah... had been a tiring day.. omg first time 7pm to 10pm lecture... marketing somemore.. can die!! and the bus stop was superrrr crowded at 10pm --" plus it was raining at the west side, which gotta suck bad. since 6pm it had been raining until now non stop zomg. im so knackered! goin off to bed now... wish i could snuggle with u to sleep. hehe. have u heard it yet? :3

p.s. ivan cheer up. all that i can say have been said, just... don't lose urself deep in the dark just because of this. when u're too far in, nobody can save u - not even urself? try to pick up from where u are and either continue or start over anew. if u keep looking back, u'll never be able to move on and stuck forever wallowing in those regrets. think of regrets as mistakes, mistakes that we learn from. and after we manage to get over it and pick ourselves up again, we create new chances for ourselves to venture into. maybe something different? could be almost the same situation but on ur part, taking a different approach instead? this way, ur life may suck now, but who knows in the future it might just be better. if there's a will, there's a way. believe and u shall find. haha. anyway hope u get through it soon! dont want u to keep mulling over this thing after so long, and keep on reminding urself about stupid thing that u will forever be thinking about if u dont do something to it. maybe u have tried ur best. but what u need is to surpass ur best and be better. ok? :)

2011-11-22T14:11:00.004+08:00

searching for a few words of comfort but there were none...
a picture speaks a thousand words they say (just 9 actually):

bad start = bad day.. true?

2011-11-20T10:43:00.004+08:00

Through the good and the bad times, i hope that whatever we face, we can always overcome them together. The things that have been said, we shall remember it in our hearts. Will you? :)

Watched Immortal yesterday! Not bad lah, maybe 3.5/5 stars! Lolx although the storyline wasn't that great imo~ Dinner at SUN dining CHIJMES. Soooo expensive~ I think only the rich can go there eat... 1 set meal cheapest $50 lol. Portion not very big, and some of the food are not really fresh either :\ But their sashimi was nice! That $20 worth of $40 Sashimi voucher was not very worth it... Felt cheated actually. Nvm, a belated celebration for 11-11-11 :D

Time together is just never quite enough
When you and I are alone, I’ve never felt so at home
What will it take to make or break this hint of love?
We need time, only time
When we’re apart whatever are you thinking of?
If this is what I call home, why does it feel so alone
So tell me darling do you wish we’d fall in love?
All the time, all the time.

2011-11-19T04:08:00.017+08:00

thanks paul for talking to me the whole night through :) deeply appreciated. i owe u a meal then. hehe.

thinking back, maybe jealousy is stupid. the stupidest form of love ever that i have the greatest sin of carrying it around with me 7/11. lol, at least not 24/7 not like last time ok!

my resolution for new year for maturity:

1. to have no expectations.
2. to not ask too much questions.
3. to not get jealous. free to leave and stay if u wish.
4. to not care too much, and understand more of ur needs.
5. to love you like how love should feel like.

then i'll have no qualms.
i can do it. i just have to change my way of thinking. and live my own life as it is. i don't own anything, since nothing is really paid using my money.

i will smile even though im hurt inside.
i will be positive even though life tries to get the best of me.
i will be hardworking, although my traits says that im unfit for it.

i'll be a better person.

i'll try. its a mission that i should be accomplishing. its not easy, but i will accomplish it. its not easy at all... haha im always saying this.. :(

P.S. Food for thought: Do u even really know what i need?

Don't ask me... I don't wanna talk about this anymore, since we've been through it so many times that if u still don't get it until now, then there's nothing i can do to make it right. i've done my part, at least. but at least i know how u feel...
one thing that im certain of about me being mature of is that, i will never make empty promises while i have crossed my heart. its not about it being "fine as long as i dont know about it". at the end of the day, i kept to my words. im a man of honor.
but if u grow tired out of it already as much as i did, then stop.. just stop for a second, and let me know that its fine, that i can live without u, that we won't have to argue or quarrel anymore. not in another day, another month nor another year. i'm ready. i can take it. otherwise, pls dont talk about this.. xx

2011-11-17T09:29:00.008+08:00

i wonder if u saw what i wrote last night.
tower heist was funny, and at least its one of a kind show - responsibility. that manager is great though. i wish i could be like him. lol.

hope today's gon be a good day... no marketing today. yay. but still need to sch tap independent studies. dumass "module". waste transport fee.

What have I done? I wish I could run
Away from this ship goin' under
Just tryin' to help, hurt everyone else
Now I feel the weight of the world is
On my shoulders

*What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many it times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right
To get it right

Can I start again with my faith shaken?
'Cause I can't go back and undo this
I just have to stay and face my mistakes
But if I get stronger and wiser
I'll get through this

So I throw up my fist
I will punch in the air
And accept the truth that sometimes life isn't fair
Yeah, I'll send out a wish
Yeah, I'll send up a prayer
And finally, someone will see
How much I care!

2011-11-13T00:16:00.006+08:00

Tonight was fun! Met up with clique again and catched up with each other quite abit, but at the end of the day everyone were beat tired. Hahaha. Well, maybe next time we can play the kinetic dance game. Enough of rock band i guess. :p meetup together again sometime!! and keep in touch~
Thanks everyone for the pressie!! To Van, SH, Jon, HW, SC, Sutin, and Qin too!! :))

(Spent quite alot today!! XD) Pictures wait for van to upload~

Oh, and maybe tmr then update some Botanic Gardens pictures due last week :p

dag dig dug hatiku berkata - akhirnya bisa bertemu denganmu lagi walaupun hanya untuk beberapa hari kau tidak di sisiku.. rasanya 1 bulan telah lewat... wahh gimana yah kalao aku pulang untuk sebulan atau lebih? duuh, moga moga kalo waktu itu sudah tiba, aku gak bakal mikir apa apa lagi yah...

no more camera, but only iOS version 3.2 ipad 1. sad :'(

2011-11-11T17:59:00.005+08:00

its our 5th, and suddenly i miss u, right now, right this moment.
dedicating this song to you, hope u will listen to it :)
the lyrics are my wish right now.

Well you are the one,
The one that lies close to me.
Whispers, "Hello,
I've missed you quite terribly."
I fell in love,
in love with you suddenly.
Now there's no place else
I could be, but
Here in your arms.

I like,
Where you sleep,
When you sleep,
Next to me.
I like,
Where you sleep,
Here.

Our lips,
Can touch.
And our cheeks,
Can brush.
Cause our lips can touch,
Here.

p.s. the moon is awesome tonight. hope u saw it too :)

2011-11-08T22:18:00.003+08:00

iwmy, :(

study study, mom's here till friday. sian, gotta give back my camera. there goes my precious~
dun care, next time when i go back imma bring back the camera!! good thing last wkend went to Botanic Gardens snap snap some pictures. :D at least spent some time outside and taking a walk in the park too. it was a great day :))) will post some of the pictures next time if i have the time and mood. hehe.

oh yeah, downloaded Phantom of the Opera show as well. forgot to mention juz now.. mm, do i watch it alone? :\ i want my small moscato bottle!!! :x

2011-11-07T14:14:00.002+08:00

If i had known how pointless it is, i wouldn't have asked nor even take the time to think through and talk about it, only to know that its just words. Just, pointless. Even wasting emotions away thinking what i have done wrong.

2011-11-06T22:53:00.003+08:00

watched phantom of the opera this evening. was rather amusing and most fascinating. words could never describe something so captivating as a play like that. hahahaha. well, all words used are true. :P

had quite the shock today, quite the bad mood, quite the sadness, quite the smile, and quite the disappointment. for now, i'm just glad to be able to think of nothing. i shall sleep in peace tonight if the night allows me to.

seriously, if nobody's gonna say anything constructive then i think lets just forget about the outing. lets skip it. i've lost all interest n mood to do so anyway. why should i bother to plan when nobody's even interested in it.

2011-11-06T12:46:00.001+08:00

fvckthisshit

2011-11-05T09:03:00.004+08:00

Saw G.Kang aka Tomato yesterday at Sgoon Gden Village. Lol, what a pleasant surprise. Was walking and talking then someone snapped his fingers in front of my face. I looked at him for a few seconds, then realised that its him!! Lol. Didn't notice him at all and he doesn't look like the old gk that i knew :p been awhile since we met, i feel a little guilty actually. haha. Well, glad to see him again. :) That was kinda funny. Lolz.

Lolz, Shaun asked me to go find him at Sgoon Village when he was there last night, but i didn't wanna go down since there's 2 of his other friends as well -_- Then i didn't get back to him whether im goin down or not. Haha, paisei. Anyway i was busy with my discussion, sooo... Can't be helped lah. :x

And i apologize for asking u again.. Its my bad.

2011-11-04T18:48:00.003+08:00

Edited some pictures over the past few days, just trying out the Lightroom that i have since like a year ago from Ivan. LOL. Well, i hope they're not too bad:

2011-10-31T23:04:00.002+08:00

Today's Soup Spoon chicken ragout was especially delicious!! Haha the chicken ragout was kinda soft and nice!!! Then watched What's Your Number with my 1 for 1 movie ticket which expires today~ XD The movie was kinda funny, and somehow heart warming.. :) Wanted to buy back Soup Spoon's soup packet but lazy to walk back, anyway its getting late and we still have lots of things to do, so probably next time then buy bah...

Arrr still have my assignments to do, halfway done n tmr due!! Then wednesday got test and thursday due for my marketing assignment which i'm 0% done wahhahahaha. Well well, if im really short of time then the least i can do is to burn midnite oil haha, even if its crap work :) But i doubt my last minute work will b that crappy unless i really sian of it? Hehe.

Feeling so tired now.. Wan slp, yet still got so much things to do :( Sigh, what's going on??? =.=

2011-10-30T23:04:00.006+08:00

Quick update: Went flyer today in broad daylight for the 2nd time!! Omg -.- so scary haha but somehow didn't feel as scared as the previous time. Hm hm hm ^.^/

Just wanna laugh with you when u're happy, cheer u upz when u're sad, pick u up when u're down, be there for u when u need me, and just be satisfied spending time with u whenever i can :)

Picas on the go:

Got these at the Braun Buffel Sale at Suntec! Last day today muahaha, considered lucky i guess? :D

wubwubwubwubwub wububububu :p

2011-10-28T00:51:00.004+08:00

Why do u think I decided to take out my psp to play on the bus, when I can spend the time to talk to u or doing something more productive? As I said before, I would rather not do that..
Lying on my bed and typing this. Funny how everytime before I sleep, things would just flow through the head. Lol I'm sure everyone gets that every once in awhile. Ahh, at least blogging helps me to get things off my mind. But maybe shouldn't put too much info since its open to the public~ :/

Can I sleep well tonight? Doubt so ah.. Ivan.. Ur assignment better get it done when u see this ah.. Lol.

Don't leave me alone whenever i feel emo, please? :(

2011-10-26T19:33:00.007+08:00

I should be happy as it is.
Been absent for quite awhile again it seems. I hope my memory won't fail me on the gaps in between.. Both happy or sad moments.

A whole day of nonsense, now back to work!

2011-10-20T09:43:00.008+08:00

Well at least it turned out good yesterday.. :) although i want some sweet stuff as well~

impromptu and unplanned stuff huh.. maybe i just need to get used to it a little bit.. and to learn to trust more? haha, been sayin that but im still closed up in my own thoughts.. well i'll try my best! D:

anyway, 21 years old liao, must be more mature!!

im so looking forward to the gifts and this weekends!!! :D

woo hoo!! can go to casino alr!! :p

oh, gotta get ready for school now. boo today will be a busy day :(

oops.. didn't take more pictures yesterday... sob :'(

P.S. thanks everyone who wished me happy bird day :P

2011-10-19T00:32:00.009+08:00

Its my birthday! Yay.... I'm so happy... Not. Maybe i brought this upon myself. But i thought it could be better. Or much sweeter. But it turned out to be bitter. Maybe when there's expectations, it really is bound to get crushed to the core until dusts are what's left to sweep away.

So much for the midnight.

I guess i'll just try to be happy for the rest of the day. Dislike.

2011-10-16T12:15:00.005+08:00

Still having diarrhea.. -.- Practically expelled everything i ate yesterday. Argh, at this rate i can never eat anything..! And then i'll lose more weight. Noooooo~ Haiz. Will try to get something from Watsons later i guess.

I'm as good as a sick man.

Where is the love?

2011-10-16T00:13:00.003+08:00

Urgh, diarrhea... Its okay, i can take care of myself.. Just hope it won't last until too long.. Not when my birthday is nearing pls :(

My cousin went back already this afternoon. Well actually i had fun and a nice chat with her around. At least i feel less lonely. Although i feel obliged to stay with her the whole time as she becomes my responsibility here. Lol okay that sounds wrong, but not to that extent duh.

Went USS for the 3rd time ffs.. Lol, and this time round was plain bullshit.. Haha pictures shall be uploaded tmr or smth :x At least i've got to hold hands with Betty Boop. LoL how cute :3

On the side note, i wish i can gain more weight! Staying this slim is not an option!! And my stomach area is growing bigger..?? THAT is worrysome. I don't drink beer either! D:

I feel so weak and unconfident...

2011-10-13T23:28:00.008+08:00

Rain please go away, i hate rainy seasons :( Cannot swim also!

Sigh, i need to get my own Panadol tmr. God damn Paracetamol breaks into pieces and turns into powder the moment it touches water. That's 1 years old Paracetamol. Told my guardian to buy Panadol Flu and she still hasn't bought it until now. Bi ch.

Hope i don't get sick tomorrow. I'm always taking care of myself. I can't count on anyone. So, I won't ask for anything.

Maybe its true. There will still be the 4th 5th 6th times and so on. It just doesn't stop.
Last night u said u didn't want to. Then there you go. Don't worry, i'm not sore about it.

Back to melancholy.

Oh it tears me up
I tried to hold on but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but its not enough
To make it all okay

You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Well the truth hurts
And lies worse
How can i give anymore
When i love you a little less
than before?

2011-10-04T23:48:00.007+08:00

independent? meh. i don't think i am. i'm just a loner.
i forsee tmr that i'll be in a bad mood.

雨淅瀝瀝的下　讓我想起你說你最愛它
所以我也愛上了雨啊
站在窗前眺望　今天的風景會不會不一樣
能不能就停止悲傷
雨水模糊了我的雙眼　你卻不能看見
輕輕滑落的淚水　是我對你的思念

在雨中
思念　想念　掛念　惦念　留念　懷念　不停的念　你的名字
哦　那是我曾經擁有過的
最美最好的幸福

雨中的
思念　想念　掛念　惦念　留念　懷念　我感覺到我好孤獨
哦　為什麼你溫柔的手
再不會　撫摸我的臉龐

停靠街邊櫥窗　靜靜看著雨中人來人往
現在的你　在哪個遠方
走在繁華路上　我的心卻像在荒漠般蒼涼
你是否　也跟我一樣
雨水模糊了我的雙眼　你卻不能看見
輕輕滑落的淚水　是我對你的想念

在雨中
思念　想念　掛念　惦念　留念　懷念　不停的念　你的名字
哦　那是我曾經擁有過的
最美最好的幸福
雨中的
思念　想念　掛念　惦念　留念　懷念　我感覺到我好孤獨
哦　為什麼你溫柔的手
再不會　撫摸我的臉龐

2011-10-03T15:44:00.002+08:00

HEY! its been awhile since i last blogged! blame it on the lack of inspiration. haha. and kinda down with flu so didn't really have the mood to do anything. didn't even went for my usual weekly swim for the past 2 weeks already! :(
time passed by so quickly and now its October! oh man, to think that i have been complaining about how slow time passes. lol. but its true that when we have nothing much to do, time pass by almost like queueing for the delicious breakfast market food during the weekends - it takes forever. (i recently experienced this for quite a number of times already). however, when we look back to the past, we realise that it happen so long ago that we can't seem to remember when it happened; it feels like yesterday, to only find out that its not really yesterday. lol okay i assume u get the drift. my writing still kinda suck atm.

anywayz, nothing much these few days. just getting used to school and studying and healing my flu + sore throat. my table's in a big mess and i really should clean them up one of the days. hurhur. oh oh. and i have a liking for sweet wine. it taste better than the usual red wine. like, seriously! although the usual has more alcohol content. :\

and i need to get myself a memory card reader! :( and screen protector! since last time... D:

oh btw ivan, i got your pressie! hur durr. u're gonna kill me for that. HAHAHA.

2011-09-27T22:26:00.006+08:00

i'm feeling a litle bit suay today. missed my 136 bus twice in the morning. took 73 after i missed the first one, then the other one suddenly drive past when im in 73. zzz wth, its just 5min within that difference that another 136 has to appear. no choice had to go to amk mrt opposite to take 74e, an express bus to reach class on time. plus, guardian hasn't prepared breakfast. so went bread talk to buy a piece of hawaiian pizza before heading off, since 74e only arrives at 7.30~8am range. saw Sutin while waiting for the bus. lol i thought who was waving to me. so blur at that time. she go office so early as well o_o only 7.45am? haha.
then sat alone in the LT for POA today. didn't really felt like mingling with anyone although gilbert, leon and lz was in the same LT. but anyway not close to them also. went home immediately after lesson, but good thing the bus came fast. and i fell asleep in the bus.... until i wake up, realised that i missed 1 bus stop away from AMK mrt. LOL. not too bad, but still unlucky.
then in the evening before going out, lost 1 side of my earpiece's earbud. those noise cancelling one. dunno where got sell. haix so mafan.

i even got cheated of my dinner! they say large portion of kimchi ramen but my stomach wasn't even filled.. better dun eat 313 foodcourt's korean food next time :[

now my feet are so tired that i'm glad i can sit down @home after long hours and distance of walking. haiz. not to mention a probability of getting sore throat.

i really am thinking of getting a motorbike D: but then again, the inconvenience of having a vehicle in Singapore....... ;_; vs. the inconvenience of waiting for bus and trains... and for ppl to board+alight the bus...... what a dilemma :\

sorry, didn't mean to stress you out. definitely not within this busy period. :(

2011-09-25T15:44:00.004+08:00

sad cus didn't go borders in PP earlier to get the books @ 70% offer.. its closing on the 26th!! walked around and practically found nothing at all yesterday -_- only bought 1 book - .//hack which costs $5 after discount x_x

tried new taste of wine as well! red wine with cherry, watermelon and a hint of raspberry. sweet :)

and finally finished 1 book bought from the previous borders sale :)

Van's full combo. Imbaaaaa.

2011-09-24T11:21:00.015+08:00

Somehow found this in my pictures. Haha reading it actually gave me a few insights.

Right. I guess no matter how much i want everything to be both-sided, love does not seek fairness. I know, i'm not an idiot. I'm just obsessed with fairness. I just wanted you to treat me the way i treated you. But all that tolerance and hate and rage, where do i put into? Will the things i do go to a waste eventually? Is it worth fighting for? As r/s goes, will our feelings grow apart or will they get us closer? I know the future is bleak, but if it seems hopeless, i'd rather not give in my all... I really don't wanna put in energy into something that i know will not work out. A part of me says i still believe in it, yet the other part tries to block off my own feelings..
I know everyone needs space for themselves. I know everyone has their own secrets that they keep only to themselves. I know i know, but do you know yourself?

'Do not stay in a relationship just to make the other person happy, and think that you've made some sacrifice and prove your love and loyalty. Be honest with how you feel and how as a couple you can grow together, or grow apart. There is no right or wrong. We just have to respect each other's choices.'

Love is such a challenge, huh? There's so much factors we consider in a person, so many reasons that we disagree. Maybe its because i didn't understand it in the first place.

最后，你们都是一样的，而我.. 只是个大傻瓜.

i feel much better after thinking through my thoughts properly. but i don't wanna lose you..

2011-09-23T19:48:00.009+08:00

eating chao ta food is really bad for the health. now im starting to have sore throat liao. symptoms symptoms. muz drink more water! i wonder why these few days feel kinda hyped up although i should be feeling tired. oh, and the results are slowly showing!!!

i should have went down thompson medical to collect my medical report. uhm i wonder if they open tmr? checking the webbie, they open on weekends as well.. eh wait, its 24-hour clinic. LOL. hmm maybe i'll head down in the late morning. then... do what? maybe ktv? :\ haix got things to do but at the same time dunno wat to do. haha.

hmm. i don't even know myself..

well this song needs improvement. lol.

2011-09-22T23:29:00.002+08:00

Kill of the day. (Top right hand --> Kill 2 ppl at one shot :D) Let me try to video next time. Mwahaha.

2011-09-22T18:14:00.003+08:00

First day of school! Well it wasn't all that different. Just that i didn't bring a bigger bag to put my notes in. Didn't expect it to be so thick --" At least don't have to pay for the notes! But but but... Need to buy textbooks... And 1 marketing tb already costs $60, then 4 modules = $240! OMG. That's too much!!! D: 2nd hand books might be a better idea, but supply < demand, so.. U get what i mean.

Tonight will need to register for UOL in their portal. Last night saw the mail but don't really have the time to settle.. Pay money again for their membership fees. Money flowing out!

Plus, going back home from school is a bitch. I wonder if its especially after 3pm classes. The bus stop is just completely covered with heads! I mean, students. Barely even had the space to move up. Next time take picture. I guess maybe after some schools are having their study break or whatever break then there'll be less ppl? Hope so. I know RMIT is gonna have a break as well. Oh anyway, when the bus 74 came it was already so packed, plus nobody is getting off the bus. So many ppl squeezing trying to get into the bus as well. It was a rather pitiful sight... So i decided to take the alternative, longer route which apparently cost me $2 ride home - the train. Bus ride will cost only $1.53. I guess that $0.47 extra to spend on comfortability? Haha talk about marketing. But then again, from SIM HQ to Clementi MRT, then all the way down to Serangoon and home. 2 friggin hours to get home. What idiocy -_- FML for another 2 years. Boo!!

Rain rain rain, had been raining throughout the whole morning and afternoon, and its so damn cold! I hate this weather :\ 2 weeks never swim already as well, all that hard work will be going to a waste. I want the hot weather to be back!! Dark clouds still, looks like it'll rain again during the night? Boooo. Just when i had the motivation to work out at least. Tsk.

Dinner soon. Hungry hungry. Waiting waiting.

The overdued Truffle picture:

P.s. Ivan do ur work la don't chat or go fb! Tsk tsk tsk *Shakes head* :P

2011-09-21T00:14:00.011+08:00

DDR in the morning with Van at Dhoby Ghaut. Fun but tiring! Hehe. Play total of $12 (1.50$ for each game) x2 cos got promotion 1 credit for additional 1. So actually we played a total of $12! 3 rounds for each credit, so total we played 24 songs. LOL. Went there early in the morning at 10.30 but the stupid arcade decides to open at 11+ instead when the opening hours is actually like 10am! Grrrr. We waited there like idiots :( Went for KFC lunch after that. Wonderful :P

Watched Johny English the movie today! It was hilarious and entertaining. Haha. Must watch!
2 more days till school starts. I'm feeling kinda nervous. Then, slowly i'll implement the 25 hours of studies a week... Lol. Sounds tough seriously. I couldn't help being lazy sometimes, to open up my books and find out that i'm actually already in my dreams... :P

2011-09-16T16:13:00.001+08:00

oh oh i made some food today. desserts, actually. haha. i'll post it up on sunday maybe :P an expensive one :(

2011-09-15T00:41:00.003+08:00

An important conversation that should not be forgotten :)
Physically and emotionally, both play an important role.
Maintaining it is not easy, and we still have lots to learn and to understand more about each other.
I still have faith and believe in it. Never give up!!! :3

Smurfs was funny. And cute. Haha, Gutsy is cute.

2011-09-12T21:41:00.010+08:00

Its not that i'm angry, just... You probably know what i'm thinking anyway.

Did anyone notice that its hazy today? I wonder if its Indonesia's forest fires again. Lol but the weather isn't even that hot these few days. It was kinda cold in the afternoon. Whut. Anyway, imma stop for awhile now. Blogging, that is. Better than writing nonsensical stuff and meaningless posts. Why do i even bother trying? Haha. Anyhow, i'll be back in a few days! Soooo, BRB and have a good week ahead!

Oh, before i forgot. The movie "Haunters" was kinda interesting. Haha, quite alike Japanese movie plots - except that its in Korean. Still waiting to watch Smurfs and the other movie. Oh and swimming as well. Hmm, funny how my motivation changed, yet the goal is intact. Haha. Anyway, that's all folks. :)

If you can understand, something funny (gokil):

Meh. So difficult.

2011-09-10T00:26:00.002+08:00

arghh stomach ache not nice feeling D: pret preet preeettt

hope by tmr no more pain already.. otherwise die.. haha. well well, these few days are kinda sian~ the only thing i can do are reading comics, forums, books, articles, news (well, most of the things that im supposed to do is actually reading, but im so lazy to read :x), playing game (as usual, although more trolling these few days trolol), watch movies/tv series, sleep, eat snacks, looking through pictures, and old pictures, and listening to songs. soul-searching, doing some self-thoughts. sorting out stuff into my hard disks. cleaning the room and packing my stuff. checking emails. thinking of u. haha. everyone's so busy these days~ next time its gonna be busy together. lalala. la.

eh come to think of it, i daydream much lesser now? plus, mentalist season 2 has become a little interesting. lol. :D

alrights, off to bed now! wan an :)

2011-09-08T00:14:00.004+08:00

“We cannot change our past. We can not change the fact that people act in a certain way. We can not change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude.” – Charles R. Swindoll

***

There once was a woman who woke up one morning, looked in the mirror, and noticed she had only three hairs on her head.

"Well," she said, "I think I'll braid my hair today."? So she did and she had a wonderful day.

The next day she woke up, looked in the mirror and saw that she had only two hairs on her head.

"H-M-M, " she said, "I think I'll part my hair down the middle today."? So she did and she had a grand day.

The next day she woke up, looked in the mirror and noticed that she had only one hair on her head.

"Well," she said, "Today I'm going to wear my hair in a pony tail." So she did and she had a fun, fun day.

The next day she woke up, looked in the mirror and noticed that there wasn't a single hair on her head.

"YEAH!" she exclaimed, "I don't have to fix my hair today!"

Attitude is everything.

***

The men of Charlie Company had been in the field for two weeks
when the Sarge announces, I've got good news and bad news.

- First the good news. Today we're going to change our underwear.

The troops start cheering wildly.

- Now the bad news ( continues the Sarge ) ...
Smith, you will change with John. Andrew, you will change with Murphy, ...

***

Been readin a random stranger's blog for the past night and i couldn't stop reading the author's comments and thoughts about positivity and life advices. As well as his travelling pictures and other nice pictures~ Interesting reads is one thing, but to remember what i've read is another thing lolol. Actually i might have forgotten what i read already --" too much to take in haa.

2011-09-06T22:08:00.001+08:00

a total turn off.

2011-09-06T10:55:00.002+08:00

After the lan and supper, finished up my work before gg to bed. Was so tired last night that i forgot to change my shirt and went to sleep after finishing up my work -.-"
Then now mum told me she'll just email the companies tmr to order the goods. Arrrgh if i should've known then i wouldn't have to finish the stupid thing! Bleh.

2011-09-05T21:24:00.005+08:00

munching snack while watching mentalist haha. yumyumyum.

pictures below for JB 2 hours trip :x haha thats one of the scariest moments in my life. food is nice, price is so so lah hor? lol. but not filling enough :\

mum coming back today! 4am haha waiting for her msg later on gonna LAN with shaun and nick again. -.-" well at least i hv something to do while waiting for her to come to sg i guess. still need to do work that she assigned me! lol haven't do yet D: so much numbers and figures!! careless prone haha.
looking forward to next weekends!!! :D weeeeeeeeee~ though i feel quite bad like forcing ppl to do stuff lor.. haix :(

As long as at the end of the day, u come back to me, eh...?

2011-09-02T14:14:00.003+08:00

Making up for yesterday's post..

Yesterday was really tiring day. Went down to SIM then to ICA to get extension on my Visit Pass, just to know that the pass can't be extended. Although i should have fought it out with the ICA officer and tell her the details, she seemed so impatient and fierce. That's when my "Tsuna" mode took over. :\

I was just so pissed off with the school as well as... Nvm. Anyway, thought that i would probably go for a 1 day getaway to Batam and nearly booked the hotel already. But last minute changes decided to go to JB to shop and eat then come back on the same day.
The journey there was really sianz ttm. Just to travel there and back, already wasted 3 hours+ in total. Grrr. So flushed out by the time i got home. But at least it worked and i had another 30 days of visit here. Phew, what an adventure.

Thought i can have a deep slumber and sleep like a pig, turns out i can't sleep at all. Well, at least it was on and off and trying to force myself to sleep, so managed to get some rest. And it was so cold last night, whereas today is so hot! Like, 360 degrees change in weather? Okay, maybe just 100 degrees haha. Perhaps just giving some time off would actually be better. Just stay happy and positive for now. :)

2011-08-31T22:29:00.003+08:00

Sunday:
Went Terracotta exhibition at ACM!! :D So many ppl on the weekend.. There's this tour on the exhibition, but the tour guide was speaking so softly and so many ppl crowding around them also.. Abit sian so decided to walk around on ourselves. They have this iphone application too that can pop up 3d images when capturing them in the camera. Oh ya! Haven't send pictures to me yet :( Took picture with the 3d image. Haha quite funny actually. I'll send out the pictures soon. Hotmail sucks only can send up to 25mb of file attachment! -.-"

Tuesday:
Hong Wei's 21st B'day Party!! :) Happy Advanced Birthday HW! Hehe. Went to SMU Glassroom Cafe for his celebration. Kinda nice place. Took some pictures, and chatted with the clique. Bigger clique picture taken with HW's cousin's cam :( Also discussed on what and how to draw on his bday black book. Took us so long to design haha. Hogging it for quite a while XD Then cake cutting. Took vid of his speech lol. Funny. Loved the choc cake. Apparently its from Sweet Secrets! *yumyum* Oops, should update the pics as well soon...! Hmm now im wondering what i should do on my 21st... Guess i'll just have a small one. Don't like crowds :| anyway, when the date is nearer then plan ba i guess. Hee.

Today:
Stupid SIM. Wanted to ask them about my Visitor Pass cus its expiring on 3rd Sept. Called them for like 5 times nv pick up my call at all. Sent email to ISO also nv reply. Bullshit sia. Communication so lousy. Probably give feedback also no use. Shit school. =.= In the end just applied extension of Visit Pass thru ICA website. So much easier actually. Rawr. If application fail then i'll just go on a holiday~ Bleah.

Just came home from swimming! So tired~ The water was so cold today although the weather was fine, really. Felt abit giddy and a little heavy when finished swimming and leaving.. Haa don't know why. Then walked to NEX to have dinner! Dined in at LENAS of MOF. Didn't thought the food would be quite yummy. Its Italian food, btw. Great food, great service, decent price. Their menu range is broad as well! Haha. Chatted with one of the service staff also. Should have brought my camera today to take pic of the food :x lolol.

Great day today :) So full!!!

2011-08-27T23:41:00.002+08:00

i hate working out! but at least now that i have some motivation, i'll be able to figure something out. hmmm.. ahhh so lazy ~.~"!!!

today woke up like super late lol. ahh shat, been waking up so late, must change this habit soon otherwise when sch reopens i wouldn't be able to wake up :(

after lunch, went with mum to visit my cousin at the condo beside Parkway parade. its quite a distance from my house, i realised, although it doesn't seem too far away. 135 took awhile to get there~ lol. anyway.
my cousin, who is still bed-ridden, had a brain tumor last year which made him fall into a coma, and only to wake up a few months ago. well, i wasn't expecting anything when i headed there. didn't think of the state and condition that he would be in, would be sooo pitiful - that i twitched whenever i look into his direction. his awkward resting pose made it even worse :\ he has to drink milk everyday from the tube. nothing else. he even had a hard time taking a leak... i wonder, will he ever go back living a normal life? if not, its really sad that he has to face all those pain and suffering although he really had no say about whether he wanna continue this life or not. this kind of life - how is it even worth living?

left at 4.15 and decided to take the taxi home. mum gotta catch her flight to Sz at 7. luckily she wasn't late. yeah good thing i forced to take the taxi home, and also told her to take taxi to the airport. --"

2011-08-26T23:33:00.007+08:00

mum came over today. phew, tiring day. zomg. well at least it was somewhat fun going over to sim lim tower to see all the bosses again. and then over to sim lim square to look for dslr cameras. nearly bought one though, except i didn't want it to be an impulse purchase. not that i really need it anyway. hahaa. then did some ibanking thing for mum as well after sim lim. and then after dinner, she was lookin all over for this shop sellin fitflops.. -.- wasted some time and effort there to search and in the end bought em at isetan. haha. guess whattt it costs 159$!!! diaooo waaaayyy too overpriced for a pair of slippers imo. oh wait, did i mention we had jack's place for lunch? haha, spent 50bux and lunch didn't taste that great... oddly. pictures will be up some other day. dozing off but restraining some energy left after writing these. *snoreeee* eh, i don't snore at all hor!! hehe.. :p

sometimes i wished u'd care a little bit more.. i hope i'm not asking for too much. i still wanna turn to u and talk about anything and everything, to be comfortable talking about it. like i said before, i don't want anything to change, except changing for the better.. i'm not questioning. i'm just reflecting some thoughts.. let me know if it irritates or bothers you. maybe i'm sensitive, maybe i'm paranoid, but all i know is the my faith will still be present, and not the past.

2011-08-24T13:16:00.003+08:00

I wish i was as cool as Ricksby. Or Cho. Or Jane? LOL.

Arghhhh........

2011-08-23T13:34:00.005+08:00

Its gonna rain again, -.-, can't go cut hair again?? Heaven doesn't want me to cut my hair hahahaha.

I think mission fail. Sigh. Not much appetite these few days leh stomach stomach why are u so small?~

sometimes i wonder why ppl like to be defensive when it comes to being critisized if the food they make REALLY has room for improvements. i mean, sure u can be expert in this area (cooking baking whatever) already. but that doesn't mean u can shut off comments from ppl who have tried ur stuff if that IS the truth. -.- make me just feel lazy to say anything. maybe i should just shut my mouth and say its awful. tadaa - there you go.

2011-08-23T00:04:00.010+08:00

As much as i hate to agree that the less you care, the happier you'll be, but that bochup attitude i know it best. Its just not right if its something that is important to you. If you start to care less, maybe it has become less important to you then. Everyone wants to be happy, but its not that simple to achieve happiness. Or rather, its not easy to maintain. :\

Haha, Ivan dun say until like i so bad leh! :x I just started to make simple stuff only lor, at least im learning and im just doing it myself... No pressure haha. In front of the masterchef very pressurising indeed :p by no means it is an excuse, cus' u'll go all "why u so slow, dam noob leh u..." and "u never even do anything!!" and stuff. Haha. Well maybe that time i was partly no mood to do also lah. Now got mood then do lor!! Who ask u go aussie so fast :p lolol. Jk jk xD K lah u come back then we cook moar lor! Haha, fingers crossed.

Anyway i'm feeling uber tired today. Don't know why. Although i just had my last cup of tea from Gong Cha..! My first cup and it was quite delicious :) Haha, much much much better than KOI for fxxx sake! Lolol. Okay tucking in soon. Maybe i'm being a little too sensitive haha. But to err is human right? Well i hate excuses, so i should stop making them as well. xD In ni ren jiu shi zhe me de jiao hua! Bleah.

I only said goodnight and bye today. Oh no i think i did it again. Stop stop stop. Hais :(

2011-08-22T14:13:00.004+08:00

Baked Maple Story today!! Oops, i meant maple biscuits haha. Well it didn't turn out well and its kinda sweet. Lolol. Nvm, practice practice. Haa. D:
Haha the reality is somewhat different from expectation too :(

Wanted to cut hair today too, but it looks like its gonna rain.. So i guess maybe tmr? D: Huahh its so long!!

2011-08-21T11:52:00.005+08:00

♪ Party World, Fullmetal Alchemist, Ramen Play. :3

Forgot to bring camera cus rushed out of house :(

Hoo boy, feeling kinda lazy now. Lol ahhhhhhh~~

2011-08-19T00:21:00.002+08:00

there's still so much to learn, and i wanna be closer to u :D then no more funny thoughts. its time to believe again! but please don't ever break it. i will never do anything to hurt you.. nor i will take things for granted. i'm contented as long as things are still the way it is! ^^

2011-08-18T09:35:00.012+08:00

Went out with Van yesterday afternoon and Shaun with Nick at night. Tiring day.

Haha. The staff gave us the wrong sushi order. Van forcefully ate them in the end :P

Serangoon garden's lan shop is such a blackmailing place. If u overshot by 1 minute then u have to pay for the next hour liao. And the staff didn't even tell us this in the first place. What the f. So naturally, we thought that it will just switch off after our first hour is up. Zzz. Luckily they had enough money to pay for my 2nd hour, cus im all spent. Lol. Just, a little pissed off with that idiot lan shop.

Pictures at Sakae for yesterday! :D

Oh Van, forgot to pass u the pictures for ur bday. Lol. Remind me next time?

Of course we ordered more than this~

I'm on a mission!

2011-08-17T00:38:00.004+08:00

haha, always. :)

today went to watch Horrible Bosses!! its a really hilarious movie hahaha. good show :)
supposedly today should go swimming with the weather so nice too.. but bo bian, still abit sick.. so maybe the day after tmr~

i wanna grow fatter!! D:

2011-08-15T23:29:00.002+08:00

:(

didn't mean to raise my voice at you... but,...

:(

2011-08-14T16:42:00.003+08:00

i'm getting sick again.. boo :(
hopefully the vitamin C will help... sigh

this weekends was kinda funny.., watched Captain America (like finally!!) and bought tickets to the fullmetal alchemist show this coming weekends!! then i shall ******** the other 2 anime movies! lolol. hehee hope the movie will be good~ but captain america was rather disappointing.. still got a few more movies to watch! and need to swim too~

to make next week:
- egg benedict!
- cookies / cakes? :\

2011-08-11T23:56:00.009+08:00

Baking Day!!

Feeling a little weird at the moment :( And tbh i really don't know why, but i'm just feeling so sianz and moody. Probably because of teh failz cookies i made this afternoon? Wanted it to come out crunchy but it was kinda chewy and dry! Haha. And i didn't really like it myself :( Maybe will try again next week. I'll make sure its better the next time round!

Well actually wanted to post in the blog in the evening, and i was so enthu then. Lol. Too busy doing some PSP game quest.. Haha. But i guess i'll just let the pictures do the talking now? :\

folding it in...

testing to make sure the dough is alright..
green light, i guess?
i used the top right recipe... oh, i think its 300f and not degrees. i took 175~180degrees for 10~15min ba.

even the dog is bored. lol.
finally done!
That's a chocolate chip in the middle, btw. Lol.

Well that's that for now. I hope tomorrow i'll be better! Oh, i just realised that's 2 months!! That made me smile :)

random song that pops up randomly into my head before i go to sleep:
tonight's song is dedicated to the failed DJ! enjoy this lovely sweet song, and sweet dreams! Better luck next time~ :D

i wanna make you smile
whenever you're sad
carry u around when your arthritis is bad
all i wanna do
is grow old with you
i'll get your medicine when your tummy aches
build u a fire if the furnice breaks, oh
it could be so nice, growing old with you
i'll miss you
kiss you
give you my coat when you are cold
need you
feed you
even let you hold the remote control
so let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
put you to bed when you have too much to drink
oh i could be the man
who grows old with you
i wanna grow old with you

2011-08-10T19:51:00.003+08:00

anyone can be a photographer as long as u have DSLR camera! ... wait what? cannot be photographer if i have sony camera meh?? =.=

2011-08-10T16:12:00.004+08:00

Its been such a lazy week! Hahaa. Don't feel like doing anything yet :x Ok ok tmr shall bake!

Had Teadot's green tea drink yesterday at NEX. Haha not too bad leh, quite yummy. And enjoyed the time chatting and laughing away :) Watched NDP fireworks in the evening too! Haha funny to see TV and the real fireworks from afar simultaneously. 5 minutes of the fireworks show was it? Seems so little lol :s
After NDP show, watched Starhub channel's 111: some taiwan singing competition, for awhile. Wanted to continue watching that, but decided to watch movies instead, and to spend some quality time :p But watched halfway then stopped :( Bo bian haha. Opened that can of beer that i bought from Taka Jap Fair. Its quite smooth but taste funny, like some soya sauce beer. Lol i don't think its fruity lahh~ i'm not gonna buy expensive jap beer again!

Kinda having insomnia these few days.. Tired wanna sleep but can't really get into the deep sleep state, keep waking up ocassionally. -_- Let me try taking a short nap, and hopefully tonight i can still sleep. Lol. Pillow pillow come its time for me to hug u~ I still want more bao bao T^T

2011-08-09T00:25:00.004+08:00

Tmr is National Day! Today (half an hour ago) was kinda lazy bum day~ Played TF2 and my PSP all afternoon, trying to figure out how to unlock more stuff.. Lol.
Watched The Mentalists from dinner till night :D At least covered 3 episodes today~ The show is quite interesting actually. And cute. Haha. Basically its a murder investigation show, with some traces of humor and clever plots. Well, maybe a little predictable sometimes, but which investigation show wouldn't?~ :P

Vanvan changed outing to next week! I shall bake some cookies this Thursday :) Must set a timing so i won't procrastinate so much. Lolol. Probably will visit the dentist soon too!

Shall head to bed in afew more minutes.. :D

2011-08-08T00:23:00.004+08:00

What a weekend! :) I will never forget it!

Bought a jeans from Bershka for just 40bux!! It was on sale haha, quite afew nice stuff on offer actually - marina sq. Then bought myself a pillow too for my chair so i wont have backache haha :P

First time eat Jack's Place today! Quite expensive lunch lor! But overall, the food wasn't too bad :) The lobster bisque soup is nice too! Next time i wanna try their Caesar Salad~ Though not sure will have next time or not. Haha.

This week: National Day, Swimming, Baking, Playnation
Now feeling a little lazy! Gosh, must pull myself together! Must do abit of stuff~

2011-08-06T21:05:00.008+08:00

The past few days has been a torture to me. Especially when the same mistake is made twice. U should have known how i felt. You should know that although i managed to cover it, deep down im hurt, and i started mistrusting you. What if i was the one doing it? Would you just close your eyes and pretend like nothing happened? For that short period, would it be worthwhile to throw everything else away?

If you can't resist temptation, then its best to stay away from it.. And if you can't stay away from it, then its time we talk. Otherwise i will be so upset and disappointed and would have probably given it up. I don't ever want this to happen again... I have faith in us and i believe in you, so why don't you? Never ever take anything for granted, for there will only be regret when its gone. One thing you should know: I had my share of temptation too, but i managed it. Well. All i know was that i coulnd't let you down, and never i will. I shall always remember our promises and i swear i won't ever break them. Can ask for a favour? - to at least do the same.. Not temporarily, but permanently.

I'm glad its all over. Haha i don't even know since when i've become so forgiving and persistent. Somehow we managed to pull this one through. I'm very happy that we're still back on track :) I still hope i could trust you with all my heart. From now on, can we be honest with each other? And i hope you could show me that i'm not making the wrong decision. Loving you with all my heart.

2011-08-01T18:45:00.004+08:00

Now that there's no school, i have practically nothing to do :\
Well, i guess there's some stuff that i can do, except that i don't know how long their attention life span will be. Lol. Ahh 22nd September start sch again!! I guess now its time for me to nuah lolol.

I wanna do some stuff before school starts too!! D:

Van's bday outing at Saturday afternoon at some bar near SG flyer there. Haha been a long time since we all met. Finally saw HW and Johnson's botak heads~ Lol we're in different worlds now. I escaped hell, literally :P Well the outing wasn't too bad, at least i enjoyed myself taking pictures with my camera haha. Like a photographer! ^.^ Lazy to blog these few days haha. The lazy symptom is back.. Argh, should start to work out again soon! Ciao for now~~

2011-07-29T00:04:00.002+08:00

HAPPY B'DAY VANVAN!!

Whaooooaohaoaoaoo... Today's Maths Paper SUCKS TTM!!!! OMG i hope i can pass. I REALLY HOPE!!! D: D: D: Just need that few 34 marks and i don't know why i can't remember the stupid formula... When i re-checked they're actually correct except for some missing items (e.g. integration's (UV - S V du)), some careless mistakes, and some blank questions. LOL. It was damn hard can..... The stupid matrix question took me frigging 1 hour to do -.- Hahaha... And my first page of the question was like, filled with workings. Hur hur... I think the invigilator saw it too.. XP abit shy haha..

Tonight was a very enjoyable night! :) went swimming in the cold waters (ZOMG freaking cold!!), then went NEX to have our dinner. headed home after that. Tori Go is not nice, not worth the money. Don't go eat that next time~

I don't wanna take maths again T_T

2011-07-27T11:01:00.011+08:00

edit: staying strong, still fighting for the love!

i'm glad we pulled it through. pinky thumb promise. i believe when something goes wrong, the blame is shared between the 2 people. but there will always be a way to solve it no matter how. that's why we gotta fight for it. although its so soon for something like this to happen, i really wonder in the long run, will history not repeat itself? otherwise, will we be able to overcome any other obstacles? together? i shall continue to have faith in us.

on the side note, we should never take anything for granted. if you can't resist temptation, then its best to just stay away from it.. it takes a long time to build up trust, yet just only seconds to destroy it.

for now, i'll have a little bit of rest then i'll start work after lunch! my eyes feels like closing D:

oh oh, and my cake book finally arrived! after 2 weeks..... but well, on the bright side at least it reached its destination! Can't wait to start baking once exams are over! then i'll want to play game, learn lightroom and photography, and exercising too! planning to put on some weight and maybe build some muscles. woot. well well its so rare to see me being so hardworking right? hahaha. saying it is always easier than doing it, as usual. but at least i can haz the motivation!

for me, its the other way round :) but either way, it doesn't matter as long as i got you!

2011-07-25T00:21:00.007+08:00

"I'll always be behind you, mentally. Jia you Jia you Jia you!"
My back's being watched! Haha just kidding. U were there all the while from the start :) and thats when I know i'll do my best!

2011-07-23T13:01:00.004+08:00

Watched Harry Potter last night. It was great; the best of its series, and the most non-boring show at least compared to the previous ones. Just my personal opinion :p
Lido Shaw's popcorn is the best compared to GV and Cathay! But don't like the seats. Throughout the show got this one guy sitting in front of me so tall, even when i'm sitting above him he still can block a small part of my screen view. -.-

Gotta study hard(er) from today onwards until thurs!! I think i'll have a short rest and continue my studies later in the afternoon.... Yup, a short rest. Haha XD

So many things going through in my mind, and i just can't remember the lot once i see u. Lol. Is it butterfly in my brains (stomach)? Haha. Anyway, its time that i should grow up. I don't know exactly how, but i hope i'm doing it right.

"The only real mistake is the one from which we learn nothing." - John Powell

Oh, another one kope from van's blog. haha wanna call her using the new nickname but later she get angry only :p

"When two people truly care about each other,
they will always look for a way to be together."

Happy Yes-ter-Day :)

2011-07-21T22:42:00.005+08:00

yesterday:
sent ivan the bastard ass off at changi to Brisbane!!! took mrt down from clementi to changi take 1 hour lor -.-" lol then ate kfc while he look at me eat :p then was looking for ppl to take pic of us both before he left.. suddenly he met his mum's friend! so qiao woot hahaha then they talk canto which i cant understand. i wanna learn canto! lols. anyway won't be seeing him again for another 6+months... sad ah! lol. then he'll come back for good anyway at probably about end jan..? i wont miss u!!! lolol jk :p
then after that took bus to bishan then studied for 1 hour in the library before going out to orchard again after that~ ohh was kinda tiring day as well. haha. waiting for pictures from ivan! haha oh yea, took some snapshot from changi's KFC thingy too. fun. hahaha. :D

today:
phew what a tiring day.. came home after school and wanted to swim, just to find out that the stupid swimming pool opens at 2.30pm today!! lucky i didnt went there earlier. lol otherwise i'll be waiting like an idiot. sooo anyway went back home after swimming and went out to find vanvan at dhoby. lol vanvan was upset much. well at least i hope my company was alright and doesn't make her feel too sad.. although she was like forcing me to make her cry. LOL. moreover, kinda tired today too, just basically eat and eat and eat. (and take some pictures too - of food!) eating feast!! haha but i hope i can gain weight~ seriously, i'm desparate to gain weight now lolol. i'll gambateh!

didn't touch any book or did any work today! will do some maths questions later before i go slp i guess. can't wait for tmr evening!! :) so looking forward to it heehee.

some pictures: her and her gloomy face :(

she even attempted to suicide!! (pic 3) haha

That NUS bottle is so cute i want!! although it can only fill up so little water. lousy but nice!
the heart shape is she make one. she don't want to teach me. stingy only. haha.
And the last picture is taken this afternoon when i was reading the newspaper :)

2011-07-19T00:25:00.007+08:00

eCR Day till tmr!! Time to choose my units! I'll probably have Principles of Marketing, Sociology, Accounting and lastly, Information System and Organizations. I hope i can get my slots!!!

Went out to Sim Lim Square with the bastard friend today (yet again, both to sim lim square for the third time and to meet the bastard friend for the third time too :p) Lol. Wanted to buy my charger cus last time i saw it before at the 1st floor shop and it wasn't too expensive. Then today i asked them they don't have any more stock :(

Wasted, when i could get it at just $8. I probably should buy it online from dealextreme. Hmm. There's a risk of incompatibility but at least its cheap. Haha. I'll order it online sometime soon. Let me think it through. Lol. Even the headset might not be as good... :\

After that went to some baking shop. Cheap ingredients and cooking utensils though. Ivan bought himself the creme brulee cup thingy. Forgot what its called. Lol.

Then walked down to the Seligie there to have the tau huay. Well, he had it, not me. I had my super sweet $1 grass jelly drink. It was bad. -.- Then walked down to Plaza Singapura to eat Swensens for the 1 for 1 ice cream deal! Woot, haha 10 bux for 2 ppl instead :p

After that, walked down again to Orchard's Ngee Ann City to eat the Yoshinoya Deal voucher that he bought. Lol. Had my beef bowl for dinner. Sooo, thats it~ Went to some shop at Wisma forget the name of the shop lol. Then went back home. Too bad Ivan's going off at Wed alr. Haha lucky he nv went back on Sun, otherwise got stomachache in the plane then i laugh at him. Wahahaha. Evil!

Reached home, settled down awhile and then decided to install whatapps since Van asked me to try. Lol so i tried, but my phone was lower version. So i upgraded the OS from v4.6 to v5.0! Phew, at least it went smoothly. Otherwise i'll drop down and cry cos my phone is spoilt. Lolol. XP But then can't use Whatsapp... Too bad, it just wouldn't update. Haha. And anyway i don't have a data plan. I might not need it afterall. Guess back to messaging! But at least my phone is compatible for Apps now! :x Haha, after exams i shall look more into it.

10 more days (less, actually) to econs and maths bridging exam!! I can do it~ 34/100 shouldn't be too difficult, not especially for maths! Maths cannot fail, no excuses. Haha. Econs, lets chionngggg. Ok lah, at least do abit of maths everyday, that should help. Heh, time for some studying action!

and lastly, just wanna express my feelings.

Tonight is one of my liveliest nights, and i wish i could be this lively alike sunshine no matter what time of the day it is. I'm calling out to you~ Where are youuuuu?

i'm not writing this for the sake of writing! -.- sometimes i just can't recall well on how my day went.. so, at least this is how i can describe how it was. well, probably its just that it is shown to the general public. haha. peace out.

2011-07-17T19:38:00.006+08:00

Saturday night was a night of Safari. Lots of ppl!! Haha good thing we bought it at half price, but the bad thing was that we queued for awhile for the tram, yet can't take good pictures since its moving and its dark :( But well, guess i did enjoyed my first time there lol. Enjoyed their show too!

Got back home so late, and the stupid bus driver didn't stop at the right bus stop. Press already in the end passed the bus stop that we wanna alight at. Grr made us missed the other last bus home. Have to take other bus to TPY then took taxi home from there instead -.- Also the idiot's fault for pressing the bell for more than 5 times then nv alight also. Then maybe ppl think it was us, when we didn't actually press it at all lol. Really damn idiot. Bwah.

Looking through at the pictures and was like, 20% good pics only T_T lol. But i doubt i'll go there the second time. Haha it would just be the same. Otters and Raccoons are so cute!~

School again tmr~ Sian but i will survive~ Starting to think in the right direction *proud* i shouldn't be dependent all the time :)
tmr need to do eCR for unit selection! hopefully i don't choose the wrong units :\ psychology, information system or financial management? tough choices calls for tough decisions!

2011-07-14T00:41:00.001+08:00

i will not

2011-07-11T22:35:00.006+08:00

Sad happy sad happy day. lol.

This morning woken up at 4am by the aircon noise. zzzz. i'm never gonna on the aircon again. lest it disturbs my sleep. then went to school in the morning and realised that there is no class ZOMGWTH!!!! i was so zzzzzzzz. went to library to double cfm my timetable to make sure i am right. indeed i was. so i stayed in the library for awhile - read hamlet, ideas and communications book. then went off after 1 hour. heh. shouldn't have tapped the student campus attendance. :\

I believe i can!

Aftnn went down to town to watch transformers. Loitered around the area for awhile and was a little bit bored. haha. then watched transformers. transformers was so so lah. Action wise its packed but i feel that its kind of the same as the usual transformer action leh, nothing special... maybe harry potter will be better. hehe. ohh, downloaded some more movies also need to watch D: dunno when will have the time? Sigh..... ~.~

there is the trust that i need to learn about. and we've still got lots to learn.
happy 1st! :D

2011-07-10T23:27:00.004+08:00

oh, forgot to mention yesterday that i bought a baking book from e-bay for my guardian's bday lol. costed me $42bux, and setting up the stupid paypal was so frigging irritating, which i eventually made another account just to make a new paypal a/c. lol. cos the previous one i anyhow put my name. Hahaha. so yeah. took me awhile to get that stupid paypal thing running and to be able to buy the stupid expensive book :(

SGD:GBP rate is 0.49... Boo. So the book only costed about 21GBP... Lol, UK stuff damn expensive sia if converted... Hmmm oh yeah come to think of it. I just realised that GBP means pounds. LOL. Diaoooo. Anw dunno how long the book will arrive. Int'l shipping may take 2 weeks ivan say. sian. lol. well ok lah, at least i save $5 from buying from Kinokuniya? haahaa... bleh. all that trouble wasn't even worth it -_-

Well. Went to meet Ivan for dinner and looked for the book in Orchard Kino before we had our french dinner. Haha. the food wasn't that bad lah, but its really halal place so dunno got difference from the real french food or not? haha and the owner is chinese! i didnt even see any french cooks... ~.~ not sure? lol. the funny thing is tat we didn't fully utilise the voucher that he bought. after everything got 8bux left about there, then he was thinking not to waste it. so he had himself an apple pie. lol, i didnt want it cos too full alr! hahaha. then we sat outside and rush for the performance at 8pm. so rush until so sweaty lor! -.-" hates being sweaty esp in smart clothes. lol.

Pictures posted up in FB!! :)

At night went to Derrick's performance at Esplanade Recital Studio. Ivan was nice enough to accompany me to watch Derrick's performance. Lol. He bought the tickets while i got it for free... XD anw he also nv go in before, so good experience! hahahaa. after the performance, waited for Derrick to come down to the sistic counter, but didn't see him for quite some time for more than half an hour liao... so just decided to go back cos i have something else to do anyway. it was a good performance nevertheless :) although can be improved, imho. haha. jia u derrick.

Now, back to studying until i rcv ur msg :)

2011-07-09T13:32:00.002+08:00

Yay i made my own scrambled egg this afternoon! :D Yummy and easy to cook. haha, i feel that i've been cooking easy stuff all the time. Well, everyone starts noob i guess. Lol. At least i'm learning. ^^

2011-07-08T23:39:00.005+08:00

Although i feel the need to write something here, but I have nothing to write!! My mind not working now haha, its in a lazy state.. Tmr going to concert and makan french resto.. Lol, gonna be a long day~ A bit tired, but i'll stay up till 12 sg time then sleep! Been tf2-ing all night long, at least my comp still can play sniper although not as good as lan shop :s ownage today woohoo 7 dominations. I think i'm pretty good in tf2. hehehe. just not too pro. ^^

Oh, my phone is kinda gonna die soon. :( i hope not. its giving me "unable to load pictures" problems and scanning the media file so slowly when i plugged it out of my comp. Maybe i should use a charger to charge my phone instead. Haha. Nvm i shall get it soon, 8 bux only anw which i hope can help my phone to last longer! I love my current phone :( i'm so used to it already and it just has all my data and other stuff inside, which never fail to remind me when i forget. haha. :\
otherwise, i wouldn't mind changing phone! if only there is a way to transfer all the data to the new phone~ D:

2011-07-04T23:36:00.005+08:00

My guardian's new plantation! Flower pot on a bamboo stick. Kewl haha.

Bakerzin's ice cream with coffee shot. Nice shot right? :D

Set meal which costed about $22 bux if i rmb correctly. But its delicious yum yum!

Tiramisu latte, sweet. I like!

Me looking ugly. Haha.

Today school's topic was tough. I hate all those square roots and e's. -.- but at least the e's are a little bit (or will be) easier after practicing. Lol.

Went down to Tanjong Pagar to meet my guardian, to collect my banker's guarantee. Collect for like only 10minutes then head home. Walked so much and the weather so hot! Then went back to sgoon NEX to eat Subway. Haha. First time eating subway with my guardian. Went home, then went out to Guan Yin Miao to bai bai abit. In the end only bai bai to Ti Gong cos didn't know the other gods' names. :s
After that headed down to Sim Lim Square to get a new mouse pad. Bought a $20 razer mouse pad in the end -.- lol well it was kinda on sale of 5bux. Didn't know what made me buy it, maybe partly cos i don't wanna spoil my mouse and partly also that it was on discount hahahaa. Well anyway its sleek, so no complaints! :) Enjoyed the company too, definitely! :D

My Authentic Soto Betawi dinner at Sim Lim Sq food court!! Was not too bad lah. Hee yum.

Cam-ing while collecting our frolick quickie cup. Oh i am so muscular! Lol use voucher save 2 bux. Frolick not really worth it lor if just buy like that.. Next stop, Once Upon a Milkshake~ :D

No, I don't wanna falter... Maybe its just my usual moodyness D: will get back on my feet and be my usual lively self again soon! Ugh, thats why sometimes i hate myself being myself. Sometimes my mind just refuses to think of the right things, but the stupid things. I'm on it. Count on me!!!!!!!! But of course i need your help too. Haha. Since it takes two hands to *clap clap clap* :x

2011-07-02T14:31:00.007+08:00

last night was nice :) but still getting the side effects it. what was it again? hmm, gin tonic? lol. bitter. but i quite liked it. although i feel more sick and tired today. and maybe a little scared. i should see a doctor :( rest for now.. huam..

2011-06-30T23:09:00.003+08:00

ahh anyway, im feeling so tired... tonight slept late again.. :(
i hope i won't get a very big eyebag.. hopefully not like van's or sh's! XD
hope sickness will go away tmr. shoo shoo. maths for tmr. sian. time pass fast in the morning pls. rawr.

ok i wanna be mature. soon enough, hopefully! although this kind of things can't rush, really. :\ okok positive thinking. sheesh. i just wanna be better! not only for now, but for years to come!

gloomy day which turns out wonderful :))) sometimes its the little things that can make me fall harder. it makes the heart go all fluffy. lol. its just... nice. :)
ilu !

2011-06-30T13:45:00.007+08:00

Something wrong with google chrome's blogger publishing D: I think its just me. Some bad gateway thing. Lol. So in the end have to use my IE to post...

Sick again :( It started 2 days ago when i ate too much heaty food and resulting in itchy throat. Sigh! Drink water drink water... Drink so much liao.. Luckily still got some of my leftover medicines! Well at least now its not too bad. Hopefully will subside quickly so i can enjoy my weekends~ Lalala~

Home-grown bittergourd! Haha, look at the size of it man. Its pretty. And it tasted good too :D

Guess what? The Banker's Guarantee letter is here!!! Haha finally after 3 weeks lo! Emailed the TG dept also nv reply.. Lol.
Then yesterday went down to the bank immediately in the afternoon, but in the end wasted the whole trip sia! Cos in the end i wasn't 21 years old yet so cannot apply for a banker's guarantee. Zzzz kind of sian, but oh well the lady was nice though. So just forget it. Gonna go down to the bank today with my guardian. Hope things will go well, otherwise i don't know what to do T_T

Yesterday The Alliance outing!! To Vivo this time round. It could be better if i wasn't feeling sicky. Lol. Ate Secret Recipe for dinner and it was not too bad :) I like caesar salad! Hahaa. Chatted till about 9.15 then went to look for Van's shoes. I bought an Everlast shoe instead lol. $56 discount 20% to $46. Haha not too bad ehh. In the end Van didn't buy any shoes for her recently-broken shoes. Lol.
Went to Tangs to look at shoes before going home, but SH and me got separated from the other 2. LOL cos we were too concentrated on messaging haha. Looked around for them but couldn't find. Then decided to wait outside for them, and after awhile they finally appeared. Haha. Quite funny actually.
Oh, found this inside Tangs too. So cute. Hahaha.

Can't wait for the weekends to come where i'll be :)))))
Although i'll be skipping econs again... Monopolistic Competition. Hopefully its not that hard to understand, since Monopoly wasn't too tough. Hee.
And next week alliance outing again! Lol so we're active now. Haha! (y)

2011-06-26T23:16:00.003+08:00

What a wonderful weekend! Www today using the chalet's free tickets! XD tmr start sch again boo... Hais back to square 1. Gotta start being mature man. Shall go to sleep to remove my eye bag..... Gd night!

Note to self - don't be so petty! :(

2011-06-25T17:22:00.006+08:00

Missed 1 econs class today! woot, i'm gonna have a hard time catching up. Hopefully i'll be smart enough to figure the lecture out on my own, otherwise ask around :(
I still haven't started though, feel so guilty. Arrr. I'll take a short nap for now :X

Going www tmr! Hope it'll be fun~ :DDD Ahhh no more tiredness pl0x go away!
So fast that weekends are ending soon. 6 days a week for school is not funny at all. HATE it! Grrr. Considering just going to school for 3 hours with 1 hour bus ride, its a waste of money and time. 1 trip go school is like $1.53 lor, imagine a month i have to spend more than $100 on transport alone (including going other places). ZZZZ really sian.

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Too much of anything can make you sick
Even the good can be a curse
Makes it hard to know which road to go down
Knowing too much can get your hurt

Is it better is it worse
Are we sitting in reverse
Its just like we're going backwards
I know where I want this to go
We're driving fast but lets go slow
what i dont wanna do is crash no

Just know you're not in this thing alone
There's always a place in me that you can call home
Whenever you feel like we're growing apart
Let's just go back back back back back to the start

Anything that's worth having
Is sure enough worth fighting for
Quitings out of the question
When it gets tough gotta fight some more
We gotta fight fight fight fight fight for this love
We gotta fight fight fight fight fight for this love
We gotta fight fight fight fight fight for this love
If its worth having its worth fighting for (Oh)

Now everyday aint gon' be no picnic
Love aint no walk in the park
All you can do is make the best of it now
Can't be afraid of the dark

Just know you're not in this thing alone
There's always a place in me that you can call home
Whenever you feel like we're growing apart
Let's just go back back back back back to the start

Anything that's worth having
Is sure enough worth fighting for
Quitings out of the question
When it gets tough gotta fight some more
We gotta fight fight fight fight fight for this love
We gotta fight fight fight fight fight for this love
We gotta fight fight fight fight fight for this love
If its worth having its worth fighting for (Oh)

I don't know where we're heading
I'm willing and ready to go
We've been driving so fast we just need to slow down
And just roll

Anything that's worth having
Is sure enough worth fighting for
Quitings out of the question
When it gets tough gotta fight some more
We gotta fight fight fight fight fight for this love
We gotta fight fight fight fight fight for this love
We gotta fight fight fight fight fight for this love
If its worth having its worth fighting for (Oh)

We gotta fight fight fight fight fight for this love
We gotta fight fight fight fight fight for this love
We gotta fight fight fight fight fight for this love
If its worth having its worth fighting for (Oh)

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I think i've shared this song before. But imma share it again cus the lyrics are simply true.

Too much of anything can make you sick. Knowing too much can get your hurt. I know where I want this to go. We´re driving fast but lets go slow, what i dont wanna do is crash no. Whenever you feel like we´re growing apart, let's just go back to the start. Quitting is out of the question, when it gets tough gotta fight some more. We gotta fight for this love, if its worth having its worth fighting for!

Its better to be ignorant and know less sometimes. Although the feeling of curiosity grows the more we want to know what's behind the walls, its just best to let it go. Let things flow on its own and not dig into the matter, knowing that it might get you even more upset.

Just some self thoughts as usual. Haha.

Another one of my new findings with nice lyrics :)